mom please understand
what they ask is never ending
they allways demand
more and more its only begining
and its u i miss
im not ever winning
every 1 else is
the world is moving past me
and the devil likes 2 chase me
i fall 2 the floor and lastly
ask the lord 2 come erase me
off this stupid fuckin paper they call life
nothin ever seems 2 faze me
knowing ima die alone still waiting 4 a wife
and maybe she can calm me
ok things do faze me
ure death was pretty alarming
its kinda fuckin krazy
all i want is love and can give it
people wear talk and sing peace but never live it
maybe the pain and sufering will open theyre eyes
unfortunatly pretty faces and smiles is theyre disguise
like nothing is wrong
and the problems and the struggle they wont reconize
its been here all along
but every 1 passes us by when we cry
so please mom 4 give me
Death is coming 4 me
i dont wanna live see
when im dead theyll adore me
and truly understand the soul i truly am
you see im the nicest they deplore me
im too nice i care and they dont give a dam
im not saying im perfect
i have plenty of my faults
and was it worth it
to be 1 of the adults
far too fast
jus 2 try sex
life doesnt last
god whats next
i have surly sined
im a very old soul
with a heart you cant mend
im tierd it gets extemly old
hey you can only pretend
4 so long that this world aint cold
not like winter
but like i mean it as evil
god Yd u have 2 end her
picking the wrong friends ends up being leathel
wishing i would have done something anything more
if this is my hand im gonna fold
said youd be back went 4 the umptenth time 2 the store
came back u were sick got a cold
hooked u up with a sweater
said u were freezing
i waited 4 u 2 get better
and whats next now your weezing
saying its way 2 hot
so i thought it would be pleasing
if i bring a fan 2 the spot
u didnt get better u only got worse
that first night was like a blur
and its like i got a curse
should i call a docter i aint sure
so i go in ure purse
2 get ure phone and call 911 but u say no
now mom im no nurse
but this aint normal but i wont call if u say so
2 dayz crept by they went very very slow
got u 2 the ER
2 bad i couldnt see far
ahead in 2 our future
i had so much hope
wasnt thinkin we could loose her
how do i cope
these dayz have been a night mare
sum turn 2 dope
dont turn 2 god he dont fight fair
its a slope
my life is going downhill
im now hopeless '
u wanna know how i feel
im loosing focus
fading in and out
of ure reality
any friends i doubt
police brutality
and theyre so quick 2 run
matter of fact friends i have none
u try 2 live this
see how long u last
im asking for 4giveness
4 my awful past
what they ask is never ending
they allways demand
more and more its only begining
and its u i miss
im not ever winning
every 1 else is
the world is moving past me
and the devil likes 2 chase me
i fall 2 the floor and lastly
ask the lord 2 come erase me
off this stupid fuckin paper they call life
nothin ever seems 2 faze me
knowing ima die alone still waiting 4 a wife
and maybe she can calm me
ok things do faze me
ure death was pretty alarming
its kinda fuckin krazy
all i want is love and can give it
people wear talk and sing peace but never live it
maybe the pain and sufering will open theyre eyes
unfortunatly pretty faces and smiles is theyre disguise
like nothing is wrong
and the problems and the struggle they wont reconize
its been here all along
but every 1 passes us by when we cry
so please mom 4 give me
Death is coming 4 me
i dont wanna live see
when im dead theyll adore me
and truly understand the soul i truly am
you see im the nicest they deplore me
im too nice i care and they dont give a dam
im not saying im perfect
i have plenty of my faults
and was it worth it
to be 1 of the adults
far too fast
jus 2 try sex
life doesnt last
god whats next
i have surly sined
im a very old soul
with a heart you cant mend
im tierd it gets extemly old
hey you can only pretend
4 so long that this world aint cold
not like winter
but like i mean it as evil
god Yd u have 2 end her
picking the wrong friends ends up being leathel
wishing i would have done something anything more
if this is my hand im gonna fold
said youd be back went 4 the umptenth time 2 the store
came back u were sick got a cold
hooked u up with a sweater
said u were freezing
i waited 4 u 2 get better
and whats next now your weezing
saying its way 2 hot
so i thought it would be pleasing
if i bring a fan 2 the spot
u didnt get better u only got worse
that first night was like a blur
and its like i got a curse
should i call a docter i aint sure
so i go in ure purse
2 get ure phone and call 911 but u say no
now mom im no nurse
but this aint normal but i wont call if u say so
2 dayz crept by they went very very slow
got u 2 the ER
2 bad i couldnt see far
ahead in 2 our future
i had so much hope
wasnt thinkin we could loose her
how do i cope
these dayz have been a night mare
sum turn 2 dope
dont turn 2 god he dont fight fair
its a slope
my life is going downhill
im now hopeless '
u wanna know how i feel
im loosing focus
fading in and out
of ure reality
any friends i doubt
police brutality
and theyre so quick 2 run
matter of fact friends i have none
u try 2 live this
see how long u last
im asking for 4giveness
4 my awful past